Birth in Drought

Hey guys! I know its been a while since I wrote anything…sorry about that. Life. I realized I have written since July. YIKES. Lets be honest January was basically just a free trial month, and February disappeared so fast I don’t remember much about it. So here we are, it’s March and theres a few things going on. Ive become friends with quite a few creatives over the past months through a social media networking group that I am in. I absolutely LOVE it. It has given me the opportunity to chat and foster relationships with people who get “it”. Its a blessing to be able to experience this life as a business owner with a community of people who are open, receptive, supportive, and loving. Something I have noticed within this little network of mine is that we all are experiencing this similar creative drought and plague of ick. Now don’t get me wrong, we all are thankfully still booked and working, that’s not really the issue here. The problem seems to be that we are all in this drought season where we feel creatively dry. I know for me, times like this can be particularly challenging because unless you’ve felt it, you don’t get it. The non creatives in my life see me working, see me creating, even love what I am producing. To them theres no reason for me to feel this way. They think the only way to fix it is just to force myself to make something. Here’s the problem with that… as an artist I 100% fit into that dramatic artist stereotype (not always but it definitely occurs). A lot of my art is created from a feeling. Some kind of emotional experience happened in my life, in my mind, and I made something from it. This emotional experience has to produce some sort of inspiration in order for a very passionate and explosive creative moment to happen. As an artist I am constantly chasing that expressive moment. My art literally has been saving my life since I started but even more so over the past year and a half. I am trying to stay very motivated and believe in my art but I would be lying if I said I haven’t been experiencing more doubt than confidence. What really propelled me over the past month is really the relationships I have built with other creatives. I am definitely trying to push myself past my limits and explore new styles, outlets, and ways to get the images out of my mind and onto some sort of medium. I recently really forced myself to figure out a new way of thinking, a new way of approaching. I am completely revamping almost every element of how I create and run my business. While that can be taxing, emotionally draining, and slightly challenging at times, I am really excited to see the finished product. I realized that maybe, I just wore out the approach I was using and just need to do something new. Nothing wrong with a little reinvention. I am so excited for what that will look like and more so how I will feel once this new baby is birthed. I am so grateful for every person that I have encountered in these past few months. Especially someone in particular. My love life has been an interesting roller coaster to say the least over the past year. From being non existent to attempting to let someone in…it was quite the disaster initially. However, I stumbled across someone who has been quite the breath of fresh air. Back in November we crossed paths and it has been an exciting journey so far. Learning about myself and how to care and love for someone else selflessly again and all the joys that come with learning about a new person has by far been very exciting. You guys know I’m not one for giving up all the deets so for now Ill just refer to this amazing human as babe but maybe I’ll give you some more soon! You’ll just have to keep reading in order to find out. <3

Jahara Stevenson